1am - Woke up and looked at the clock. Rolled over. Back to sleep.
4:45- Repeat, up to the 'Back to sleep' part. Immediately upon waking, my mind filled with thoughts of things I need to do, and things that are bugging me, and sleep just ran away.
I don't like feeling this stressed - this clenching of teeth and hyperventilating and walking in a daze not knowing what I should work on because it all needs to be done NOW! There's only so much "now" to go around.
But last night it wasn't my classwork or bills or even the youth retreat I'm organizing that kept me from a sound sleep. It was irritation caused by politics - specifically, the media claiming McCain made a mistake by choosing Sarah Palin. I think it was a great decision - I see her as a breath of fresh air - actually blowing away my cynicism like so much dust during a good spring-cleaning. (Well, some of my cynicism - it's a pretty thick accumulation.)
Her daughter's pregnancy doesn't affect how I feel about her doing the job, but according to the media, it does...they say the "American Public is concerned." Well, hello...I'm the American Public. I'm so tired of the media supposedly speaking for me - the "American Public" - when they are just expressing the opinions of SOME of the American Public, or perhaps their own.
I'm also tired of hearing both parties talk about how catastrophic it will be for our country if the "other" candidate wins. I suggest taking a refresher course in US Government, like I did two years ago. Despite my cynicism, I trust in our Constitution. I believe our Balance of Power system really works.The founders were geniuses.
The other bug crawling through my mind last night, keeping me awake, has to do with our little Peyton-Place-town. Our school district superintendent has committed plagiarism (no, really - it's not disputed); yesterday I heard a rumor that the school board might not call for her resignation (in Lago Vista a rumor has a surprisingly high truth ratio.) A woman with a doctorate in education, at the helm of our school district, might just get a slap on the wrist for plagiarism? Give me a break!! What kind of message would that be sending to our kids?
I sent emails to the school board voicing my opinion (one of the great things about being an American, right?) There's nothing else I can do about it, so maybe I'll be able to get some sleep tonight. I need some rest!
I'm so grateful that in just a few weeks I'll be able to escape to the coast for my annual women's weekend, and for a few days at least, forget about all of this. Till then, if there are any more sleepless nights, I'll just start counting seagulls...or jumping dolphins...or margaritas...