"If I could save time in a bottle..."
I've always loved this song by Jim Croce - beautiful, simple lyrics - such a vivid image of holding on to time. There have been many times in my life when I've wanted to grab hold of whatever moment I was in, or a certain point in my life, and somehow bottle it, or freeze it, or at least make it slow down.
I'd love to slow time down right now, or, (wouldn't this be great?) be able to go to a closet where I've stashed a case of Time, just for emergencies and holidays, and pull out an extra bottle or two? I could really use them right now.
My class is over - shouldn't that mean I have an extra hour or two to spare each day, even if I just use them for sleeping? Instead, I feel I have less than before. I know I'm sleeping less, staying up later and getting up earlier, just to "get things done." That just doesn't make sense to me. Especially since I don't seem to be making any progress.
"But there never seems to be enough time to do the things you want to do once you find them..."
In a perfect world, I'd have time to exercise for an hour every day, not thirty minutes when most of the world is still asleep...I'd have time to relax with my husband and kids, playing card games or watching movies or going for walks every day...I've have time to talk to my parents, my friends, my son - those I can't see every day even if it's just passing them going out the door - for hours on the phone, every day...I'd have time to catch up on my emails, photo albums, scrapbooks, genealogy research (those things on my to-do lists that are always last priority)...I'd have time to READ...I'd have time to write - to finish half-thoughts and half-essays and second drafts of first drafts...I'd have time to mail Christmas cards right after Thanksgiving instead of right after Christmas...
But it's not a perfect world - but it's a good one, so I'm going to quit whining and be grateful I'm able to do so much. Now, I better get busy - I've got too much to do before the sun comes up!